Ian Dawe – 16 Months – Chapter 22
A conversation with an old friend about my current situation prompted me to look back on the time that I have spent as a professional mixed martial artist. In doing so I uncovered a lot of unresolved issues from my past.
Although I have only been fighting professionally for a little under a year and a half, I have been involved in some form of competition for as long as I can remember. As a young child I fought with extreme force to distinguish myself from my twin and older brother’s shadow. It was exhausting.
I spent countless days, months, and years attempting to avoid situations in which I might be compared to their accomplishments. Time that would have been much better spent embracing the person I was, and working on becoming the the person I eventually wanted to be.
A couple weeks ago I stumbled upon a box in my parents garage that was filled with plaques, medals, and trophies I received while growing up. Surprisingly, I didn’t remember being awarded the majority of these accolades.
However, I vividly remember the missed shots, fumbled balls, and bad decisions I made as an athlete. I have battled and defeated men who have trained to conquer me, yet have failed to silence my greatest adversary, myself.
Although this behaviour could be interpreted as a weakness, I believe that it is one of the underlying factors that drives me to compete and improve. I also believe that this mental lapse spawned one of my strongest attributes in the ring, my heart.
I am well aware that I am not the most skilled or technical fighter in the game, yet truly believe that my conditioning combined with my heart and unwillingness to give up rivals some of the greatest in the sport.
The next time I step in the ring I vow be ready physically, spiritually, and mentally.
“Believe in yourself. Believe in your own potential for greatness. Believe that you can change the world. It is something that is within each of us.” – Evan Tanner.